Author: sarabean2082

  • Not distant past

    In the not so distant past an ex called me the ice queen. I genuinely thought it was the most hurtful thing a person had ever told me. I had been trying to quietly clean up his mess without letting people know the chaos that was our lives. I think this is really how I…

  • Christmas Recap

    Today, the christmas tree came down. The kids were out of school for a storm day and so there was time. Before the kids could get ahold of the tree or my cohabitant could sloppily tear the lights down as he did I took the few ornament my kids had made after hurricane Michael that…

  • Birthday review

    This birthday may have been the worst yet. For various reasons I am driving very minimally currently. Fiona’s absolute best friend also shares my birthday and her dad took she and Caroline. Meanwhile I was at home eating beef stew and mashed potatoes when I would have much rather been at the party. All the…

  • Birthday #42

    Three years in a row I get this text at about the same time. Only after social media lets him know it’s my birthday and I’m at work and he’s rolling over to check Facebook does he even think about it. There’s never a special moment. There’s never a mention in real life. His kid…

  • Bed Time

    It’s crazy the little things you take for granted when you live with a narcissist…your kids bed time. I desperately need to not be here. But alas… I need help with the cost of getting all of the birth certificates purchased and social security cards procured to speed the process up. I wish i could…

  • Sleep over

    It’s a right of passage. The sleep over. A birthday party. An enjoyable night or day with friends at your home. All things my kids have been deprived of the last few years because we have been walking on egg shells. My boyfriend’s kid has his friends over regularly but my children aren’t allowed to.…

  • Mom Life

    There are a lot of names one could call me but lazy isn’t one. Recently, I was accused of not helping with house bills though I keep all the kids, clothed, fed, deal with ex’s and legal affairs, could go on. I was hurt. Again. I looked at my feet and thought about the last…

  • WWJD

    I am of, “a certain age,” when these rubber bracelets made their presence known. If you weren’t wearing Lance Armstrong’ yellow, Livestrong,” bracelet you were probably wearing a WWJD bracelet—what would Jesus do? Though the songs before the bracelets titled, “one of us,” and, “st Theresa,” were more my speed—thank you Joan Osborne. With the…

  • Car dwelling

    Yesterday. It all came to a head very abruptly when I was accused of yelling at his kid. For the record—I don’t yell unless my life is in danger and that hasn’t ever happened. So as I was trying to make dinner he threw my phone and all the food I was trying to cook…

  • Mothers love

    At this point in time, I am incredibly bewildered. I absolutely anticipated my current boyfriend to at some point break up with me. This afternoon we came home from the beach, and he chose to begin an argument out of the blue. Throwing my phone away. Throwing my drink away. Just being purposefully negative. To…